I am the makeup of freshly dead heritage,
This only proves my merit-age.
Bikes for carriages; we ride through lonely skyscrapers.
Sitting amongst crumpled papers and beer chasers,
Getting wasted is the only word-spoken disclaimer.
I’ll take your money; I’m a card-player, shark, dangerous-major, and one of the remainders.
Ask about my hand at 39’ sometime.
Language proclaimed loud and proud, with or without, making joyous sound resound between eyes of doubt.
Wanting to go home, 26 year-old- little kid, on my own in the big unknown:
-Advantage of Id.
-Afraid so I hid.
-We did what we did, called the bids and pulled the lids.
But, that was years ago,
Found time to watch blood and flesh grow.
Adult now, it’s my fault now.
I control me, watch and see.
What I am is all I can be.
I know I can pick friends but not family…
I am proud of who I am,
But I can’t speak for some of (and) them.
Then I think, like my Ma says, “you can’t win em’ all,”
And, “it’s thirty-six on Tuesday.”
What did I say anyway?